Friday, April 07, 2006
donating blood. my 1st time. dun feel da scariness yet but i noe later i will. tine said is not painful at all. but we'll juz have to wait n see. hope it goes well. yah. last nite mummy almost dun wan let me go. say c my pimples then say my blood not clean then cannot donate.
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rite........ nth to say lah. bleah
hhmmm. juz now chatted with wj.. like nth much lah anyway. haiz. now c fel so stress again.. cos of wat? guys. dumb guys. everything's cos of them. not tat i hate them or wat lah. is like they are da root of all our problems. hhmmm.. seems so.. does it? caused fel so much pain etc.. sheeEBy's oso sorta disturbed cos of them... then me oso..? everytime get reminded then mood will change... i dunno. dun wanna tink bout anything. have been doing fine da past dunno how long. yaR. then.... last nite sheeEBy just had to ask me bout him. . . said she saw him. again... y she always seeing him one. haiya. was with a girl.. not holding hands or anything though, according to her.. said he looked quite shocked to c her? yah.. well, din reali reply much to wat she said.. though affected my mood a little.... then she still can ask me izzit he got gf ah.. then frenster put married status.. yah wateva lah.. last time i asked him, he said no... haven toked to him in awhile.. last time was da day b4 genting trip.. got da same feeling from him, past few times is all i initiate conversation one.. then he like abit dun wan tok like tat. haiz. i dunno lah. then sometimes nv ans or wat.... hate being ignored. best thing is tat i told him tat b4. haiz. i dunno lah. last time all those things he said n promised.. i believed. not sure if i still do. holding on? i dunno. mayb not. feel like he let me down? somehow.. i dunno... hhmmm. noe tat some ppl tink he's juz playing with me n scared i get hurt or wat. yah well, thnx for all ur concern reali appreciate it n am happi tat i have frens, but i trust he's not such a person. we'll juz have to wait n c. as much as i hope sth will come out of this, i oso wish tat nth happens.. tat we'll go our seperate ways. juz remain as frens. feel like i'm not gd enuff for anyone. dun deserve anything. will give da guy a bad image if seen out with me. shit like tat. haiya. i dunno. its too bad tat i suck. i'm pathetic. hu cares anyway.
when the rite time comes.... then we'll c how.
got fourteen minutes left to change n get ready to go donate my dirty blood. tink i'm gonna be late? hope not=|
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